sharfana

Moved :)

2010-08-14T10:05:00.001-07:00

Use tumblr now :)

http://sshhhitzme.tumblr.com/

what's in my mind?

2010-07-21T04:23:00.000-07:00

1 : Nothing, just miss you. Have no reasons why. Just that, I know I'm happy with you. If only everyone's like you, then I would be happy, always.

2 : Being with you today, really giving me a very hard time. Though I enjoy some part of it, no matter how nice you were, no matter how sad you're or whatever, I'll still dislike you.

3 : I really hate the feelings that I'm feeling right now.

(:

2010-07-18T06:59:00.001-07:00

Sometimes i feel like having you, staying by my side, always.

2010-07-16T19:41:00.000-07:00

I felt totally weak, once again. I tried my best to avoid the pain, avoid from telling you, avoid anything that makes me feel the pain or feeling sad. But, it was a failure. I'm confuse on what should I do next. If the experts can't help me, how am I gonna help myself? And what can I do when the experts are not serious? I may be smiling, laughing and cracking jokes all the time but no one knows how much pain I'm feeling inside. Sometimes, I felt that my life is nothing but you, never fail to brighten up my bad days. And, it's always because of you, I'm strong enough to move on. Moving on with my current status might not be a problem. But, how am I gonna live, happily, with an unknown specific status? I felt security in my life. If life is a burden to me, why continue living?
I want my life back. I want those time when I can do anything I want. I'm in pain.

Sick.

2010-06-08T11:02:00.000-07:00

Down with fever since Saturday. Sick without medicine, oh great, i swear i like it. D:

Bored at home, seriously. I wanna go out but i'm lazy.

What's wrong with me? Nothing.

I'm confuse. Why am i blogging? I don't know.

What time is it? 02:04am.

What am i talking about? I don't know.

I'm bored, yeah. that's right.

P.S://i'm starting to dislike her more. And, i don't wanna experience love, no more. I swear.

I'm happy! XD

2010-06-04T08:09:00.000-07:00

People, that's me. Only start to post when i'm happy/sad.

Finally, gave Joyz her Spongebob stuff. Was suppose to pass it to her on the 1st June. But, WHAT THE FUCK! I forgot. So, pass it to her today. Glad that she's happy. Alright, she's leaving for the Malaysia trip tomorrow. Well, was suppose to go too. But, i can't. ): Some personal problems. Damn it.

I'm tired.

I'm super tired.

Did the 2 pieces today. Hell, seriously. After playing it, i can clearly feel my heartbeat beats very fast in the middle of my throat! O.O I swear it was freaking pain. Hell it manzxs.

Alright, got to get some rest now. Last word. I'm gonna miss Joyz, seriously. *coughing.

Take care, dogpig goat ^^

wtf la.

2010-05-30T07:34:00.000-07:00

I don't want you to get me wrong. I just hate it when i'm being cheated. Or maybe, lied. I wonder why are there lots of misunderstanding between us this few days. And, from what i see, from what you react, i believe you don't even bother about it. I know, many times you told me you cared. But, words are just words.

Now, i'm thinking. Whether should i fight for YOU.

P.S://h, sorry for being so busy. I miss you too.

again?

2010-05-26T06:13:00.000-07:00

Having headache, currently. I wonder why am i always sad when i'm home. -.-

I know, this is what i want. But i really don't know why i'm feeling sad. I don't even know what i want. Dumb right? *yeah, somehow.

I feels something is missing from me.

P.S://i don't wanna lose nor i always have to win.

bat in the house ;D

2010-05-15T10:27:00.000-07:00

Went out with my insane cousins again, today. I was late for 2hours and I'm the last to report! ;D I'm so honoured. Played hide and seek at Boon Lay inter-change. ^^ Cousins finding me like mad. Hah.

Went to play pool -.-
Apparently, I got a bad headache by the time we when in the room. Did nothing, other then stoning with an empty stomach. Played for only 1 hour and off to Jurong Point. Shopping was what we did. I bought nothing for myself but stuff for my dear Joyz ;D She and her favourite cartoon character, is FOREVER !

P.s ;// I'm sick and tire of YELLOW but not SPONGEBOB ;D

what the F*

2010-05-13T07:32:00.000-07:00

What should i say? Mixing all my emotions together, really giving me headache.

I miss those time.

if i'm ask to choose, i'm sure i'll never get confuse. Cause i already found the answer.

Luvs.

2010-05-08T11:16:00.000-07:00

if this is the only chance that i've left, then i'll move on.

I miss my life ):

2010-04-29T07:25:00.000-07:00

Thanks to Rachel and See Mun for helping me on Tuesday <3

You guys are great.

*Damn hell. I'm stil wondering who the hell shouted my name that day.

I'm rotting at home, seriously.
Did nothing other then eating medicine & studied.
I wonder will i able to make it for the coming Mid-year ): Damn hell me.
MC for a week when 5days to Mid-year. How am i suppose to do well when i can't even attend classes?!

I miss school
I miss _____
I miss Joyz
I miss Jason
I miss Aby
I miss Renee
I miss Yixaun
):

I MISS MYSELF

Once again.

2010-04-26T06:46:00.001-07:00

History are just repeating itself. i didn't know you are such person. A person who only reads the negative side and ignoring the positive side. i didn't expect everything to turned up like this. I don't know what should WE do know. What's the point of us saying sorry but in the later part, we will fight again? I don't know why my heart treasures you so much. I don't know why it's so hard to forget about you. You're a hard-hearted guy, after all. You expect people to walk in first before you.

Thanks for everything.

RUSHMORE! :D

2010-04-25T07:09:00.000-07:00

"Once the Best Always the Best"

I swear, i did nothing but just sweating o_o

Win or Lose is not a matter for us. (:

Sports Day on 23 of April. Everest won again this year. Haha, i should say it was a terrible day! So freaking hot. I wonder why i suddenly felt as if like it was winter. Thanks to those who helped me. Haha. Met Yixuan for lunch and home. (:

P.S:// Sports day is just a day. team that never rush, winning or losing is not a matter for us, its the togetherness!

RUSHMORE !

SMILE! :D

This looks cool!

Our togetherness (:

^_^

Had Rushmore BBQ on 22th of April. It was our very first gathering and it was a success. Funny things happened before the BBQ! Mr Zuhri, is the best! He started the fire for us and it tooks 30mins on that o_o While waiting, the rest of us played captain's ball :D

Apparently, i played. Mdm Lucy and Mr Seah was just staring at me (:

HAHA! i know what they meant.

Ohman..

2010-04-16T07:31:00.000-07:00

I didn't expect this week to turn up worst. I'm afraid of myself now. Afraid anything bad would happen to me. Well, thanks to teachers.

I'm happy though sick.

I'm tired of the pain man. I swear. I realise, there's nothing can be done. All i got are, advices.

Anyway, I'm famous for both positive and negative side ^^

Well, figure out yourself people. ;D

WOW!

Will update about OFS trip tomorrow. I'm tired now. :/

P.S://I swear, he's the best.

It's complicated.

2010-04-08T07:04:00.001-07:00

New life i guess, really.

Firstly,

So, this few days i'm closer to Yi Xuan? Hah, welcome to my life :D 020410

Trust me, you'll be laughing out loud 24/7

Secondly,

I didn't know love is so complicated & it's troubling me.

Feelings can't be force. I guess you understand that.

I can't make up my mind now.

Thirdly,

I'm happy now.

Please. I'm tired of being sad.

P.S://Even if there's so many choices for me, my luv only belongs to you.

It's so hard.

2010-04-06T21:56:00.000-07:00

Coughing sucks.
I miss you
but
I can't stand it anymore, sorry.
I'm not trying to turn things into worst. I just feel safer and happier with unknown people, for the moment.

what the hell

2010-04-05T07:28:00.000-07:00

You know, i never felt so angry towards you before. This is the freaking first time. Its so awkward, i swear. I tried to control myself but its just too irritating. I'm seriously confused on you. I swear, i really don't know what are you up to. Showing attitude to me, may not be problem. I'm able to accept it. I've give the best to you and i know that. This isn't the first time i'm treated this way. Too bad, i can't take it anymore even if you say

"I'll always be there for you."

I don't know why am i so direct today. Maybe, i'm feeling so upset now. Be what you want to be. If you're hurt by my words, then i'm sorry. Maybe, you got should ask yourself why.

I don't know why am i saying this.

But, i gave all my love and the best to you. I've always put you first in the list. I've always tried to not hurt your feelings. But, i realise that i'm the first who got hurt. Am i just too nice to you?

Damn fucking hell. Everything seems to be my fault.

030410

2010-04-04T07:47:00.000-07:00

i miss him like insane.

Its so sudden. Its so unbelievable.

You will never be erased from my heart.

I'll keep my promise even if you're gone now.

Rest in peace with your wife.

Luv you lots.

Banana 1 & 2 are back :D

2010-03-30T08:29:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the late post, B2 ^^

Picture from B2 (Jinwen) of me, B1? Its looks weird but appreciate alot :D

Number 1 is always better then 2 right? In that case, B1 is smarter then B2, obvious. Heh~

I'm tired.
I'm tired.
I'm tired.
of drama.
I acted normally while you, over-reacted. Show it to the whole world, isn't it better?

Investiture ;
Feels awkward during the photo taking ):
I can but at the same time can't, bear with it. She's so different now. I hate it. I just don't like her freaking attitude. In fact, i hate mine too. I swear.
Reasons? I planned out everything at home, nicely but none of it is happening. -.-"
What is it? Ask me, i'll ignore you for life.

Angry.

2010-03-27T20:18:00.000-07:00

I hate people who
- Lie
- Break promises
- Thinking that they are always right

I swear, i mean it.

Interesting.

2010-03-27T19:36:00.000-07:00

Didn't expect that we end up like this. Breaking up friendships, is the worst thing i ever done. I didn't know that i have such a VERY GOOD friend who claims that i hate, forgotten, looking down on him/her. Interesting. Since, thats what you want then, okay. Yup, everything's my fault.

P.S://You don't even know what i'm facing now. Everyone sucks.

O.O

2010-03-25T08:00:00.000-07:00

Yesterday @ 2245 hours

*knocks on the door and windows*

"who is it?"

"POLICE"

o.o

What?

2010-03-24T06:50:00.000-07:00

Usually when people are sad, they don't do anything. They just cry over their condition. But when they get angry, they bring about a change.

Felt that i'm being used.

Bastard.

Days with cousins ^^

2010-03-21T06:55:00.000-07:00

Birthday Cake from Bandmates (:

I Love Him To The Max ^^

As i promised, Pictures ^^

Bored.

I feel like playing it again, now, this hour, this minute, this second.

Addicted* :/

Tired.

2010-03-20T09:00:00.002-07:00

18/03/2010
Out with cousins. Fun, i would say. BUT, wasted like 5hours just to make sure everyone's ready. -.-" E.g guys, spiking up their hair. Felt super retard when i'm asked to hold the bottle of wax so that the guys can concentrate on their hair. Fed up with it. Went to Bendemeer and City Square with Fazz. Head to Chua Cho Kang to meet Zul and Faiz. Really wasting of time manzxs.

From Yishun to Bendemeer to Farrer Park to Dhoby Ghaut to Vivo to Chua Cho Kang to Bukit Batok to Boon Lay to Bukit Batok to Yishun to Home.

Basically, went shopping and played arcade for no reasone :D Then, bored of it and head to Jurong Safra and played pool. ^^ First time in my life! Next Tuesday, we'll meet up again yeah?

19/03/2010
R-meeting. Was late, super late. Got another Birthday surprise from R-teachers ^^ Throat wasn't feeling that well that time. Didn't finish up the cake. Almost get bashed up again by Mr shorty but manage to run away and smash the cake onto his face! But apparently, he blocked :/ wasted. Meeting end, out with Daryl Alvin and Zack to get my birthday presents. Got a teddy bear from *Make a bear shop. Super ex la! Daryl, you're mad. Didn't know Zack do talk alot too.

20/03/2010
Was suppose to meet Aby but didn't. Rot at Northpoint with sis. Went arcade and Funland. Ate alot of food drink lots of cokes! and now, COOL stomachache. -.-"

I'm gonna post pictures soon, very soon! :x

P.S://i can't forget the feelings that i've felt before. You meant everything to me. But now.. nothing. But, i've to learn to let it go

I'm back and i'm 16 ^^

2010-03-17T08:26:00.000-07:00

Thanks to those people who wished me!

Esply,

MsLuo Mr Jeremy Lim MrKee MrsFoo and Mr Daryl Toy ^^

I'm so so lazy to type D:
Edited from Joyz tumblr on what happened today ^^

Bought a cake and realized they (Joyz&gang) didn’t bring lighter. So Joyz and Jm ran to uncle yap and buy, then ran back and lit up the candles. Sang birthday song, cut cake, ate cake and as usual, SMASHING! Rq and Joyz wanted to take revenge for what i did to them last year during their birthdays (smash cake on them). But, I was the one who started rubbing cakes on people’s face. So in the end, everyone was running after/away from me, except Joyz the act innocent one ^^ With a sudden, Joyz said that she wanted to feed me and while the fork is entering my mouth and the picture was taken, ‘BOOM’, my face was filled with cake. I'm chocking to death, i swear! Knowing that i would be mad so she ran far far far away land >:c After that she came back and thought it was over, but i took my revenge. >:D

Hoping that her shirt WILL stink like last year ^^ Really smell like a ______ (:

In luv with Joyz and her presents ^^ thanks thanks!

Bored.

2010-02-16T06:24:00.000-08:00

Tricia, should i unprivate my blog?

I feel so bored blogging for you and myself. :/

But, if i unprivate it, i'm afraid that i don't know what to post?

Dotss

14 ^^

2010-02-13T05:35:00.000-08:00

14th of February, gonna be a good day, seriously. (:

*cross fingers*

In luv with the number 14 of every month ^^

):

2010-01-31T06:59:00.001-08:00

It takes time for me to cheer up. I'm sorry for masking up my face in order to hide myself.

I miss him so much. Miss him till brink of tears.
I wonder does he even have the same feelings as mine.
I'm here not to say sorry. Because, it wasn't only my fault.
I realise my mistake and i'm thinking whether you do realise yours too.
If we continue to be like this, it would be forever.

Bottling up all by myself.

2010-01-25T08:40:00.000-08:00

I'm tired dealing with all sorts of problems i have.
I'm tired of my life.
Taking care of myself, taking care of my responsibilties, taking care on my academic works, taking care of my own feelings, taking care of many other things at one time, is really giving me a major headache.

I've always wish to tell someone all my problems. Well, i do have people like Joyce. But, things are avoiding me to share my problems with her/someone/anyone. To me, whats the point of telling someone when you know that there is nothing he/she can do? In fact, you're making that particular person feel down like how you feel. If this happen, i felt that, i'm hurting myself even more deeper. I got nothing to comment about myself, currently. Things are changing and i'm trying my best to accept the fact.

P.S://Sometimes, i wish life, without friends. The feeling might be great cos no peers pressure. But, without friends, life would be boring.

No one will understand us.

2010-01-19T07:27:00.000-08:00

Days are really hard for me. Seriously, when will it end? Im not suppose to like 'always be there' for everyone. Well, maybe i can but how about for myself? Am i always there, for myself? Thousands millions of damn freaking stuff i'm thinking now and i'm wondering how am i suppose to settle it. I'm trying my best to lessen it but people are just adding, making my job harder.

I wonder why it turned out worst.

*Being a leader , is not an easy job. You tend to lost many things, increasingly.

I'm back

2010-01-10T05:43:00.000-08:00

Back to bloging, i guess.

First week of school, fun but terrible. Super tired. This year sec1s are really killing all the SCs. Camp, was the worst of all. Everyone finished bathing at 2plus! OMG. The worst yet fun camp that i ever had.

My new classmates D:
Hard to put it in words or should i say i'm not gonna post here? Basically, only complained to just 'someone' from A-Z. I just can't stand it and wishing i could be with my original classmates. How i wish i could. Well, never happen.

First week of New Year, really bring me smile alot alot alot. Esply, ^^
Oh, Jason's birthday~ Did nothing but we had lunch together before band with Ting An Renee Aby & Mr Jerry Seah. As usual, Jason act cute again -.-" He's 16 now and that's a 'damn it' !$^*^%# 17th March, will be my turn! You watch out.

second day of New Year.

2010-01-01T08:09:00.000-08:00

True, endings are forever hurting. Didn't expect to end 2009 with tears. May god bless you forever.
Sorry for the late post. I do feel better now. So, i guess i have the mood to post?

There's dedications everywhere and i wish to do one here.

Fisrtly, to Tricia Renee Jason Abigail.

Thanks for being my forever entertainer! Anyway, should we visit the zoo together one day? ^^ LOL! Sorry for the late greetings yeahh..

I know, i've failed to move on with you but dosen't mean thats the end of our friendship right? We do still can meet up during weekends and even before/during/after BAND! :D Please, stay happy w/o me in class.

Abigail, don't cry.

Renee, i do really hope you will stop nagging at me & being super aunty! Please, do encourage me to drink more coke this year instead. :D

and for Tricia, YOU BETTER MEET ME SOON HOR! >:c

Luv and Happy New Year (:

Second, Mr shorty ^^

Well, you foever bully me, irritated me, pissed me and forever repeating the same sentence again and again! My first thought of you was.. terribly bad. Its gonna be hurt, i guess. Seriously, i've no idea why me & my father have choose you to take care of me in school. Well, that's a 'long time ago' story (:

You never failed to brighten up my days. No matter how late the time is, no matter how tired you are, no matter how bad your mood is, you never failed to reply my message or answer my calls whenever i'm down or whenever i need you. You're always full with ideas full with advice just to make sure that i'm fine. You even make sure that i do take my medicine regularly and making sure that i reached home, safe. Your pigeon hole, is where my first aid is. Your gift, is my strength to carry on. And, believe me, you are not a naggy person. You nag, for the best. I really treasure you for that. Knowing you, closely for half of the year, really changed me alot. I've learnt lots of new things from you. We do have 'up&downs' too. I hate it whenever you hurt me. But, within minutes, i can forget everything, most of them. Most of all, i really enjoyed time with you. You're more crappy outside and irritating! >:c

*hitting non-stop!

I'm really sorry for hating you begining of the year. And for that, i've learn not to judge someone, blindly.

My close ones, knows who are you to me. Most of them and my mother, encourage me to stay on to it. Well, sorry to say because, i am. But, i don't know how about you. But, to me, with my current status, with you knowing my family background, i do still need 'thosetime' to be present now. i believe you understand. But, a choice can never be force and i STRONGLY believe it. But, what i have inside, is always the same in the outside. ^^

People say, ure cute ._.

omgomgomgomgomgomg! D:

So... Stay happy, annoying, irritating, funny, the best,

C-U-T-E & S-H-O-R-T forever!

And please, remember to charge your phone regularly!

And and, BAND STILL ROCKS MORE THAN NCC HOR

Luvs and Happy New Year :D

Thirdly, Joyce.

You're last in this post simply because you're the best and you're a VIP to me. Knowing my current status, knowing that i do not have time for you, knowing that i'm different in band, your attitude are forever same. With me being like this, instead of hating me you encourage me to be strong and move on. Really thank you for your advice and being there for me 24/7. I'll forever teach you all the talents that i have and that is a PROMISE.

Making it short,simple and sweet.

*Oh, you skipped my piano lessons hor!*

Remember, Ours is a story that never ends. (:

Luvs and Happy New Year :D

*omg, this playlist skin is super embarrasing!

super true.

2009-12-29T09:17:00.000-08:00

I swear, i don't believe in Daily Horoscope. But, this..

As the year is drawing to a close, it may seem as if an era is passing. You could feel like you missed the bus that was supposed to carry you into the future. In fact, you've missed it! But you don’t want to let go of your dreams, even if you are feeling somewhat discouraged now. Your faith is currently being tested; don’t take the easy way out and discard what’s important to you. Hold on to your vision, no matter what.

O.O"

Well, still don't believe. But, the part where it says 'missed the bus', okay, true and can understand.

maybe..

2009-12-28T07:33:00.000-08:00

When there's something that unavoidably befalls a person, then why refrain from satisfying one's desires or needs?

*if only there's no rules.

super dumb

2009-12-27T02:59:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, it rained. *REALLY O.O
Super heavy. Walked under the rain to North Point to meet Daryl. *thats very dumb.
Fall sick then. -.-" But, today i'm ok! :D 38.0!!
Can luh hor..

Bored Bored. Rotting at home with a major headache.

P.S://Thanks to Tricia Joycelyn & Daryl (:
*and tricia, we better meet up soon before 2010 ! :@

its 23rd!

2009-12-22T08:00:00.000-08:00

2010 coming soon ):
Not excited for it. I really wish that i could control the time. *puii

There's school tomorrow. Excited to see the new sec1s!
And, damn hell. Its in the morning, 7.10am. Freaking early O.O
Wonder will Monic/Monik (sorry) be posted to Bendemeer. Can't wait to crap with her!

*cross fingers* I WANT HER TO BE IN OUR SCHOOL :/

edited at 00.15!

Not forgetting my dear dogpig ; Joyz! She's leaving tomorrow, i mean, TONIGHT! And will be back in a week time xD LOL Take care la hor. I'm sure, you will never be missed! :b

Must miss me more hor. Must miss me even more then you miss Theron >:/

LOL

Loveeeeees (:

lonely uh?

2009-12-21T06:49:00.000-08:00

i guess i missing someone ; someone that.. i don't even know who is it

._.

LOL

I'm Feeling Lonely..

):

2009-12-20T07:30:00.000-08:00

Apparently, i woke up at 5pm and missed messaging Renee before she left. !@#$
Okay, i admit. I'm gonna miss her mann. So long! Zz.
Oh, get me a medicine that can cure me within hours, will you? xD
Take care :B

And, Joyce! CAN YOU LIKE MAKE UP YOUR MIND?! >:
23th or 24th ?!
Zzz

Alvin, coming back tomorrow! Grrrreat ^^
I wonder... " Tricia's going overseas? New Zealand again? " ._.

fun but tired.

2009-12-17T06:32:00.000-08:00

After cancelling 3of my friends outing, i finally went out with Alvin & Siang Liang today.
Was suppose to watch movie but some kid just 'suddenly don't feel like watching it'
D:

Anyway, 11am ; meet Alvin for breakfast and crap

12pm ; Siangliang came with his 'cute cute' face :B

1pm ; Left to vivo to have lunch
`went mac to eat. but, i didn't. i'm such a good girl uh?

2pm ; meet Js for lunch.
`Alvin & SiangLiang went around vivo and start gaying :b
Me & Js talk talk crap crap lunch at banquet ^^
then walk around vivo & habourfront.
Suprisingly, we went into Toy'rus & don't know what teddy bear shop

4pm ; meet Alvin & SiangLiang and off to PS.
almost missed the bloody damn station. thanks to SiangLiang -.-"
In the end, didn't even watch movie. Just walk around, arcade and Yamaha.

5pm ; Head to TPY just to visit courts, again! (damn, Renee didn't go this time)
On the way to courts, saw Js, dreaming. LOL and finally he gotta see Alvin :D

5.40pm ; Off to North Point meet my sister ^^
Hang around and play aracade. *damn, all childish games.

8pm ; home

9pm ; dinner

10.30pm ; home SWEET home.

i wonder why am i posting my today's agenda. LOL. i'm super tired. had been out the whole day since 5am in the morning! haven't even get a short freaking napp. Gonna sleep now. And, tomorrow i'm school -.-

P.S;// Alvin's leaving
Renee's leaving
Joyce's leaving
All leave me ):

sigh.

2009-12-15T08:05:00.000-08:00

I'm blogging i'm blogging.

I'm so so tired.
Nothing to post.

I just wanna go school school SCHOOL !

am i going out on thursday? ._.

great time :D

2009-12-10T08:51:00.000-08:00

I don't entertaint people who's tyring act cute or assuming that i miss them? ._.
Renee Tricia ? Oh myyy D:

With JOYCE {hope T&R jealous} 0700 till 1630. Funfunfunfunfun.
Lots of things happen and i don't even know where to start it.
hmm? 'Egg Paradise' ^^

Lol.
Glad that i smiled today. Had been facing lots of problems this few days.
I'm getting bored of it espsly, feeling sad. -.-"

Celebrating Renee's belated birthday tomorrow. {maybe!} can't believe it mann

everyone wants me be happy

2009-12-07T06:20:00.000-08:00

It turned out worst, i guess.

Renee is back. Joyce, hello (:
Alvin, goodbye ): Tricia? oh, whatever.

Rushmore outing today, well almost cancelled it because wasn't feeling well but DARLY uhh.. -.-" Keep asking me to meet them. Very irritating. Everyone keep calling. LOL In the end, i did join them. Was expecting myself to be happy, but.. zzz

damn..

2009-12-05T09:53:00.000-08:00

Don't listen to Tricia.
I just feel like posting this.

Tricia Tan Mei Xuan , " Yes she is ! "
Wanna meet her and her new job? oh yeah?
Come down to Plaza Singapura, Dhoby Ghaut. Where and where?
beside this shop that shop and taadaa "there's she is."

Oh, damn. I'm gonna be dead. Off dead.
But, i entertainted myself, i guess.
Oh, sorry tricia.

sigh.

2009-12-03T10:10:00.000-08:00

I didn't mean to make anyone of you worried. I just need someone to talk to, i guess.
And, i did it.
You stopped my tears
You make me smiled
You even make me laugh.
But, there's only left 1 thing that i really want.
ONLY 1
Which is..

" Be Happy "

its still hard for me

2009-12-01T06:35:00.000-08:00

I wonder why, my feelings is always right. You're always there. ALWAYS
Whenever i face you, i feel worst but when i receive your message, i feel happy.
Whats wrong with me?
When will this feelings stop?

I smiled to you, but do you even know..

it might be different now.

2009-11-28T01:39:00.001-08:00

I feel that my confident level has gone lower, after what you have said.
I wonder why or what makes you said that.
Whenever i read your message, the promises, the advices, it teared me.
And, i don't know why.
Do you even undersetand my feelings?
After all, maybe you are right.
But, i would prefer you say that after i'm fully recover.
Because, i know and i believe that i really need you, now.
Because..

luv him (:

2009-11-23T06:08:00.000-08:00

Nothing really happen today other then some SCs stuff.
Was angry about it, but i'm okay, now.
Just reached home and i'm feeling tired. Tomorrow, school again. Both band and camp. I suddenly feel like overnight-ing for the SC camp. Cos, very fun to ENTERTAINT people (: But, i can't. I wonder when i will get well. :/

Lastly, he's back! (so happy)

late sms.

2009-11-21T08:28:00.000-08:00

Life's boring without you ):
Wondering what time will you be back. Hope, it won't be at night. (so late)
I can't sleep.

wtf?

2009-11-20T02:40:00.000-08:00

How am i suppose to know what was happening?

I'm tired. Meeting in the morning. Was scary. But FUN! :D After meeting, lunch with Renee and Ms luo. I mean, Mrs Lin ^^ LOL
The best part of the day is that she paid our lunch! But, i swear, like.. you know the feeeeeeelings? :/
Back to school just to visit toilet.
But, something just make me unhappy about it.

What was that for , dad ?

dots..

2009-11-17T07:52:00.001-08:00

Sudden goodbye.

I hate it alot.

Just let it go?

2009-11-16T07:08:00.000-08:00

I didn't expect things to turn bad. But, i'm feeling bad. Shouting screaming dosen't works. I wonder when i'll stop posting all unreasonable words/sentence. When will i be happy like 'those time'? 6months, and i guess its not a joke.
I've to tell them. Come on, i wanna help myself.
and..

P.S://the only way to help myself is to luv them like how i luv him.

i hope it will works. i swear and promise to myself.
Because, you make me realise lots of thing and i should give everyone a chance inclusive of myself.
Loving myself, is the only thing i should start now? ._.

lost concentration

2009-11-14T06:07:00.000-08:00

Feeling super tired. Holidays are killing me. So am i holiday-ing or "holiday-ing"? I wonder why can't the time just pass faster. Sometime, i don't simply because..

I've no idea what to post about other then i'm tired. D:

Imagine that.

2009-11-09T06:26:00.000-08:00

9th November 2009, reminds me alot on 9th November 2008. With a blink of an eye, its a year. No joy but sadness. Only me, will understand what i'm saying about.

*Out with Zul and Alvin today for movie. Imagine that. Funny but alittle boring. Zul fall asleep in the cinema. D: Pig. Movie finished. Someone was hungry but claim to be not. LOL Was suppose to go home but in the end.. ah, lazy say.
Tomorrow, band? :/
No comments. Like or don't like, still have to accept it right?

Out, i go.

Ure badly missed :/

2009-11-08T06:22:00.000-08:00

Even it was hurting, / Even it is only a week,

the feelings towards you, can be never, changed.

Damn, i'm missing you lots..

Went Changi beach with Zul. Terrible, super terribe. Thanks to him, and my knee is super swallon. Lazy to explain how it happened but i can only say, its hard to walk now. Im walking like how super FAT people walks. Terrible cousin huh? LOL
Tomorrow till thursday, there's school and i'm tired. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

Once again.

2009-11-06T06:55:00.000-08:00

Why is there a No Chance for me?

The answer was shocking and hurting.

After knowing it, but why am i still holding on to it?

I wonder..

Coming coming,

2009-11-05T03:27:00.000-08:00

Do they even know what i feel?

Maybe, they don't

Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

no idea.

2009-11-03T05:50:00.000-08:00

Can i say, i'm tired? Bloody hell. Lots of stuff i've not done yet. And, it's like super alot. I don't even really have the damn time to rest, myself. Things are just not easy for me after 'it' happen. And, there's one more thing that i've been keeping it to myself. I swear, if one day i could not take it anymore, i'm sorry ; i gotta start my so call 'nonsence' and things won't be as nice as now. Or, should i say, I should just let it go.

"I need you to be here, supporting me"

edited.

Hell! i never once believe in Horoscope of the day. But, for today's horoscope, it does match with what happen to me and i kinda believe with it.

Tuesday 3rd November 2009

You may take yourself too seriously today, especially if you are working hard and don’t want to be interrupted by frivolous activities. Unfortunately, your commitment to your job can be so overstated that it is counterproductive. It becomes more difficult to stay on point without the support of those around you, so loosen up a bit and focus some of your attention on maintaining healthy relationships at work and at home.

The last sentence is linked to my Italic-ed sentence.

Love happens

2009-11-02T06:04:00.000-08:00

Things seems to be teaching me more and more.

Why did i even watched it when i refused it, in the first place?

Now, i feel even down.

What i did was reflection all the way. I wasn't even enjoying it.

Movie that linked to my life?

Will i ever look at the brighter side or the darker side?

Will i start taking stairs, just to make myself happy?

Will i be the one who gives advice or takes advice?

Will i be the person who gives up or what?

I'm not trying to be emo here. I'm just pouring all my feelings out. People always say that i'm super 'suay'. I tried to think what do they really mean. Do i even want it happened to me in the first place? I just can't stand rumours. It's just hurting me more and making me stress. I'm adviced to ignore them. It is easy to say but come on, be me and you will understand how hard it is.

Nevermind. Maybe that's me. To understand others is to love ourself, first.

Why? Try it and you will find the answer in your own heart.

Oh, not forgeting my one potato dad out there who's going overseas tomorrow.

P.S :// "Stay safe and take care ah. Don't worry about me. I'll be fine and Yes, i will update you. Have a nice trip."

Understand the feelings, do you?

2009-11-01T07:55:00.000-08:00

"I know I know I konw"

It is the only word, the only sentence, i can say.

I still can't let it go.

fever?

2009-10-31T09:33:00.000-07:00

Fever again? I'm not happy, not happy.
Don't know whether should i go out tomorrow.

Blogskin changed. Use the Basic template coz lazy to look for new skins or should i say, all skins look like shit? Nothing interesting.

No Links
No Tagboard
No Music

I'm lazy to put one. Wanna comment? Use your brain then..
It's easy if you're a great observant.

I wonder why people carry their personal problems everywhere. Why can't they put it aside? Yes, it's easy to say but hard to do it but if you try, there's always a way. But some people tend to give up easily. Come on, i'm not talking about anyone. This problem dosen't happened to me for the first time but MANY times. Normal stuff. I just want them to know, try not to bring your problems along with you, always. It will not only disturb your daily life but your health too. Health is more important than a problem. Got it?

Moody moody moody.
Holidays seems to be not fun to me.
Not about result. Is just that, my health.
It dosen't allow me to go out there and have fun i guess. Gotta rest more and eat medicine, on time.

Leaving to Perak? 1day left.
*seriously, i don't feel good now.

its not the end, for me.

2009-10-30T07:32:00.000-07:00

Even it was a hurting one, i'm not suppose, mistake, i'm NOT gonna give up.
I know, it wasn't my fault of getting the bad news. But, the saddness will always be there.
I'm sure enough that, it will be fine one day. It just need time to let it move on, smoothly. It dosen't dissapoint my parents and my special dad. In fact, their advices, makes me feel super much better and now, i'm brave enough to continue my daily life, no matter what is my condition is like. I'm given a hope and now i'm trying my very best to turn it a better one.

My parents and daddy might be helpless to help me to reduce the pain but not for my future and beliefs. I believe, it does teaches me a lesson. I know why i end up like this.

Think positive and make the right choice.
Yes, it's easy to say but hard to start it.
You gotta be _______ and believe _______

P.S;// i'm leaving them. but, not forever.

Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatball

2009-10-25T01:51:00.000-07:00

Caught Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatball with Alvin, yesterday.
Nice and funny plus dumb scientist -.-
Didn't planned to meet. Just bored.
Dinner-ed and slacked and home.

Tomorrow band.
Tired Tired.
Admin day tomorrow. I'm afraid siaa. Even if i know there's still people out there do badly then me, even if i know there's a reason why, i'm still afraid okay. :/

Shitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshit

whats next?

2009-10-23T07:31:00.001-07:00

I'm confused, once again.

How am i suppose to start it? I'm trying to let it go slowly. I can't leave everything just.. like that.

Feeling tired, stress, blanked.
I wonder what or how tomorrow will be. I've lost lots of stuff lots of friendships. And, it equals to wtf. In life, if you're a leader, people around dosen't really understand about yourself. True, everything will be hard and end up negative. I know that it gonna happen to me, in the first place. Everyone who has gone through the same process, had been advicing me thousands of times. Not only that. Isn't its harder when you know you're facing some illness and you have to handle such things? Health, studies, friend's feeling and many more. Not easy you know. It's true, i've to learn to let it go.

i'm afraid of lots of things currently.

-whats the point of me going for the camp when things dosen't goes right?
-whats the point of me holding on to everything when i know it will still end up the same?
-whats the point of me waiting for everthing?

Zzzz, i wonder why my life turns like that.

My health. Am i still thinking of it?
I don't know. But, today's visit, was scary. The very first reult, was.. Negative.

I wanna cry. Everything is upside down, now.

again.

2009-10-18T09:41:00.000-07:00

Changed blogskin cause the previous one looks so "ewwww.
I don't like since the begining of the day that i decided to have it. But, i don't even know why i still choose it. So, yah.

Yesterday, Joyce randomly came to my house for no reason but just crap.
At home, do nothing but just chat w/tv on.
G-force.
Lol. Lame, but, nice. yayaya.

Today, with Azwan.
Again, no reason. Just chat and eat. Great, he make the time past faster.
Bought this handphone strap. Gonna put it on the Horn casing ^^
At the current time, i hanged it on my bag ._.

Tomorrow, going TPY.
At first, felt alittle emo if i'm out alone. And, not safe too.
So, called Azwan whether he's free. So, yeah.. He's free.
Going TPY with him tomorrow. Don't ask me what's for. Cos, i really don't know.
I wanna go courts and get the price of a piano ^^
Mine, spoiled for no reason.

IT'S A SUDDEN ONE ! It was spoiled just nice after i played the *You're not alone - MJJ* -.-
Super not happy.

*The reason why i choose this skin because.. IM IN LOVE WITH THE GREEN COLOUR! even if there's lots of errors. -.- But, who cares! :D

bloody year.

2009-10-16T07:38:00.000-07:00

If i couldn't make it for this year,
Even if i know the reason why,
Even if it wasn't my fault,
Even if it wasn't my wish to be like that,

No matter what, i still have to accept it.

I still can't forget that day. I'm not saying that it is your fault. But, the tension the feelings the everything, i still can feel it.
Me, making all the teachers panic. You know, the feelings?
I don't want to feel that its your fault. But, when i flashback, why did you even replied my message by saying you will help? Wtf. I don't even know why am i posting it here. Now, i missed 1bloody paper. Even if its only 1 paper, it still mean lots to me. Even if i know i couldn't make it for the paper, at least i've tried. But now, what?

I HATE MY LIFE.

P.S:// even if dad said that i've to rest, even if mum said i've to accept it as it may be a gift, even if Joyce had been cheering me up every freaking day, even if my godfather had been asking me to rest and not to think of anything, i'm still like this, angry with myself. The 24/7 pain that i'm feeling now, really disturbing me and my life. I wonder..

I'm sorry.

2009-10-02T07:06:00.001-07:00

Whenever i'm feeling down or sick, it makes me flashbacks all the moment when i'm perfectly fine, a minute. I wonder why my life has to be in this way. People around who know whats going on with me, really cared about me. But, i do always have the feelings that with me in their life, really troubling them. If only i could have a wish.. Only 1 wish.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you worry. I cried because, the pain, the brethlessness, the figure, the sound, the distance, the action really making me scared. You never failed to do things for me. Why?"

someone told me that true, life goes on. But we must live it to the fullest, happily.

But am i?

Answers not found.

O.O

2009-09-29T07:57:00.000-07:00

Okay, what actually happen? I don't know.

Back to school w/lots of complains, giving me more migranes. -.-"
But, something did bring me up (: *blueeeeeeee ^^ 907041

Anyway, something funny after school before i went off to study. I mean, ITS SUPER FUNNY. Lazy to post. Not really in a good mood.

What do you feel when people start asking wierd questions? You don't want any of them to know. You lied, When you actually know whats going on.. and with them asking, it's harder for you to put forget it as .. -.-"

Seriously, i'm not sure what is it. Just hoping..
No one will understand. except you.

downnnnn~

2009-09-27T19:40:00.000-07:00

Oooo, can i say i miss her ? ):

Im sick and tired falling sick always.

The feelings , the pain , the taste really suck to the core.

I'm wondering when, when will all this stop.

Exams are coming. I missed lots of lessons.

I'm scared that, i can't make it.

Yes, i know i gotta be strong.

i'm always strong, just for you.

2009-09-26T09:19:00.000-07:00

BUT

this picture reminds me something.
still can't get it ?

"There's a place, in your heart, and i know its love and care."

sure?

My dog's birthday.

2009-09-20T18:34:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY DOG !

*the picture, nice nice ^^

Okay, i know you're older than me but that dosen't mean you can bully me as many as you one. Its a big NONO. so yaaa..

Hope you'll bark more and enjoy all the dog's food (:

*oof

Happiness? Nahh..

2009-09-13T07:21:00.000-07:00

If only happiness is as cheap is that !

Only works for cartoons. We can't buy them. Plus, someone told me, happiness can't be force. I was like.. yayayaya. hahaha.

Tomorrow, school starts. 50% excited 50% nahh.. still thinking about sleeping.

Still tired, i mean, SUPER TIRED !

But, nvmm. Woohooooo!~ left one week to fasting. But, no mood to celebrate Hari Raya. No one knows why. Heck care. Don't you dare ask me what happened. *well, maybe tricia only. But still, see my mood. Sorry, if i break out promise lo. :/

*its super hurting, seriously.

I'm getting sleepy.

Should i sleep?

Unexpected news

2009-09-10T09:14:00.001-07:00

Last two years, it was her
Last year, it was him
Please, don't take away the current two.

Its a week before the BIG day and you're in a critical condition.

Why must it be now?

You're only 12.

Why god's taking my love ones on a very special day?

Why can't you just let us be happy?

Why can't you let us enjoy this moment?

Im missing my late greatgrandmothere & my 19 years old uncle.

What a freaking day today.
*Morning, 2am ambulance came.
*In school, angry with lots of stuff & some stuff happen which makes me sad.
*Home, my sudden sick came again then bloody badnews came.

Wth is going on man? Its just hurting.
Why must it be together?
100909 is the worst of all!

I'm not gonna sleep.

wtf?

2009-09-07T07:58:00.000-07:00

To : Tricia & Wanting.

HELLO GUYS ?! THERE'S SOMETHING CALL THE WINDOWS LIVES MESSENGER ?! SPAM SPAM SPAM FOR NO REASON ?! I-D-I-O-T-! -.-

I'M LAZY TO POST OK !

Happy ^^

2009-09-04T10:13:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY JOYCE ONG SI MIN ! <3

*Sorry for the unreasonable scolding during falling in*

And, welome bak to my damn bloody hell blog ._.

Happy, i unprivated it? LAME people like..

Joyz Abigail Renee Tricia

the daily readers will read every SINGLE DAY !

which is.. good ._.

I'm very damn lazy to post the pictures. WANNA SEE? Please visit Renee's blog then.
Thank you for your cooperation. (:

And, i finally unprivated my blog ok!
Privated it because i feel like blogging anymore. But, i start blogging now because of some, i mean, LOTS of reasons. so, yaaaa

I wasn't enjoying myself just now. I tried, but i can't. Something just really disturbing me. Nothing makes me feel worst other then that unexpected news.

And, this post sound alittle emo. I guess ._. If it is.. ohh, sorry for the super lousy.. argh nevermind.

whootsss.

2009-08-20T04:09:00.001-07:00

It means, treating others well, pleasure & caring.

whats wrong if it really happen? i don't mind. I feel..

*thinking*

its always

2009-08-18T04:32:00.000-07:00

Three freaking things, that always revoles around my head.

Why do you people like to shoot people secretly but not directly? I wonder whats going around both in your minds.

1) I didn't mean not to do well for subject, i swear. Its just that, i've missed lots of your lesson simply because i'm sick, as in seriously sick and i'm sure you know that. I've always asked for lessons but what i get ? No respons. There was once, i was suppose to come for your lesson, but, something happen to me after school has ended. Today, same thing happen to me, again. And, i do really wanna attend your class. But, someone said my health is more important. I told 'this guy' to explain to you and what you said? You said " She will still suffer as she never attend my lessons." Be me, and feel how bad i'm suffering.

2) As for that guy, seriously, i don't know what you want or whats wrong with you. You had been rumoursing about me, gossiping about me, saying all bads to people behind me. Worst of all, you complained to a sec 1 kid? I don't mind what you wanna say. But, can you don't spoil our sec 1 members? Are trying to help the ____ or killing the ____ ? I don't know why this happen between us. I've always asked you, whats wrong with you being like this to me. But, you only answered, "I don't know." How am i suppose to help you&me, bringing back our friendship together again? Dream on, i guess..

3) My sister? hais, worst. You don't know how much i love you. But, you seems to be.. ): ah, how i wish, i can just tell you what i feel. But, someone, LOVED and CARED about you more. So, yaaa, i CAN'T TOUCH you. I understand. BIAS.

FUCK FUCK FUCK ! SUPER UPSET SUPER NO MOOD SUPER SAD!

Abigail, don't worry about me. I promise, i'll be okay. <3
Yup, i miss you too kkaayyys.

D:

2009-08-17T04:53:00.000-07:00

SITI, I WILL LINK YOU SOON! NOT TODAY, BUT TOMORROW (:

AND I NEVER IGNORE YOU OKAY!

Okay, daddy's coming back tomorrow! :D:D:D:D:D:D

Maybe, 'OUR' mission gonna complete soon! Today, didn't make. hais.. tsktsk*

School, seems to be so bored for only the FIRST period. I enjoyed others, seriously.

Wasn't feeling well too.. didn't do duty again D:

Was super hyper during English class. I don't know why. Was super sleepy too cos took medicine.

SHAR HATE MEDICINES TO THE CORE

I guess, i'm gonna enjoy tomorrow's school time. With everything.

Gonna sleep soon. Suddenly not feeling well.

*ImissJoyceOng.

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Aby ; aiyooooooooooo, ssshhhhhhhhhh. abnormal is me. Wierd is you! :D

ohh dammnnn~

2009-08-16T06:53:00.000-07:00

Daddy is sick.

Get well soooooooon (:

Take care.

WHAT!! O_O

2009-08-15T09:58:00.000-07:00

Yes ahhhh! Great manzxc. I finally told him everything & yes, he's gonna help me <3
I don't know why, but just EXICTED! :D

Anyway, super bored nowww D:
Slept at 2300 and awake at 0030 ._.
Now, using comp which is 0102 LOL

Oooooo i took the "What do people first notice about you?" test.
GUESS WHAT!!

"When people meet you for the first time, they can't help but notice your laugh! Even when people are feeling down, you have the ability to brighten up their day with that wonderful laugh of yours!"

OMG! So, my laughters really make you all laugh too?
I don't know.
But, EVERYONE SEEMS TO ENJOY MY LAUGHTERS!
They(whoever) say i laughed very funny with the "phewwww" ending. O_O
LOL

Oooooo~

2009-08-14T07:05:00.000-07:00

Me with some wierd kid. Who? Abigail (:

DAMN! Our hair!

SOLOsiaaaaa!

MAC WITH

.
.

Omg, i look stress

Monday 100809, with Abigail. Studied for common test. But, there's this SOMEONE who didn't even study. Hmmm, i wonder who. Ate Fries. Yup, Abigail was nagging. But, i continued eating, enjoying my seaweed shaker fries. Oh, Tricia gonna kill me.Then, continue study. Seriously, i wasn't really concentrating as Abigail keep taking pictures! Zzz.

Okay, we studied for like 2hours i guess. Then walk around Chong Phang. And pictures taken.

(*tsk, i should not tel her that i brought my camera, in the first place.)
Super damn alot! 150plusplus.

(opps, i didnt pass aby all.)

Waa, she's totally mad mannnn. So many! And, i didn't even realise it.

Soon, she nidda go. Another wierd kid just too smart saying that

" Let's take the 800 bus to the inter-change, nearer. "

YA, SO FAKE!

We make a WHOLE BIG U-TURN
e.g. Yishun ring rd, yishun ave _ yishun this yishun that.
Everywhere, YISHUN.
(while there's only one Bendemeer. Get it?)

Zzzz!

Then, meet Mr Jerry Seah Teached me @ mac. Seriously, i can't realy concentrate studying with him. Because,

1st, he keep moving his body.

2nd, he's eating fries

3rd, he face like ... hard to explain. but funny.

3hour plusplus later, end. Walked with him talk talk tak chat chat chat and every second get hit by

him on the head. -_-"

Bully bully

(your daughter? so bad.)

And, were we taking about some bike riders who randomly ride a bike? o.o

I don't what i'm saying.

Waited for his bus for like err, more then HALF AN HOUR!
WTHHHH! the bus sleeping.

And, homeeeeee~

What a long post! First time, i guess. Hehehehee.

*hmm, Aby&MJS should stop hitting my head. (:
Correct? YES!

Reply Reply :

Aby ; it was nice okay.

Tricia ; Omg it wasn't RUBBISH! Its true , you're my dog! O_O

Joyce ; Omg, don't copy Tricia. And, its true, you're a dogpig!

JINWEN ; Omgomgomg YUCKSS!

Renee ; Because, i'm talking about facts? O.o

Aby ; She's asking me, not you! ^^ Mrs/Ms/Mdm Froggy.

D:

2009-08-11T05:38:00.000-07:00

Just being happy together.

I hate the font. Waiting waiting waiting.
With Abigail then Mr Jerry Seah, yesterday. Shall post more tomorrow.
English paper wasn't that hard. But, as usual, no confidents for passing.

*i wonder why you're acting wierd.

Studying maths soon.
byeeeee.

Reply?

Lazy lazy. Tag all you want.
I'll reply when .. i feel like replying.

national day -_-"

2009-08-09T09:23:00.000-07:00

Oooo, this year's national day celebration is better. Nice plus funny plus lame plus the parade commander, seems to be funny too. And, i don't know why. Lol. Anyway, great one! i watched it till the end for the FIRST time after don't know how many years not watching it. Fireworks, alittle boring
-_- but nice abit abit* LOL

Its 12.25am now. I'm still studying maths. O.O" For, don't know what.
Meeting people tomorrow, to study again.
Whats wrong with me? Keep studying studying. Abnormal (x3) tsktsk.
Since when i like studying? AS IN REALLY INTO IT?!?!?!
I DON'T KNOW*
Wthhhhhh!

O.O i just realise that i have..
A g'father (errr)
A g'brother/sister ^^ (Jason Foo ** :D)
TWO dogs (Tricia/TingAn)
A pig (Renee)
A dogpig (Joyce)
A goodfriend. (Abigail)

LOLOLOLOLOL so random.

If only my mother never ever meets Jason, he won't be my mum's godson -_-" Wonder why she "GOD-ED" him.
!%^&#

Shall kill him ASAP :D
Lol. Back to maths now. BYEBYE!

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JINWEN ; i forever will smile. Lol. (:

super bored

2009-08-08T07:51:00.000-07:00

Oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~ i feel like blogging again.. -^

I'm boreddd. Just came back from Mac,Kfc,Pizza, 7eleven, shop&safe. anddd, its 10pm.
Seriously laaa, my migrane super irritating. eerrrr ._.
Had been asking 'mama' to hit my head many many time. Super shiok. But, later.. the pain get worser. -.-"

O.O my 'mama' bought me this wierd thing which i don't know what is it but its comfirmed, wierd.
Lol. And i bought _____ @ only $1,95! So niceee, so cheappp.
I like the casing. LOL xD *will not show you what is it. ^^

And, ohhh.. Monday no school :D
Common test on Tuesday D:
Omg, so fast. I wonder why is there exams.
WHY WHY WHY!

o.o didnt meet Joyce this weekend. I guess, i forgot. I guess, we never even plan? I don't know..
I thought.. hmm.. wierd wierd.
Anyway, D-O-T-S i hate people who lie-s. Guess who?
Sigh* i wanna sleeppp. Migrane is really killing me.
(not so early, please)

D:

Why am i blogging ? I don't know.

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Joyce ; How i know. Dying soon dying soon. tsk (x2)
Aby ; I guess, i know whats she saying. And, not the RIP die! Is, go to sleep die. Born to be dead for a few hours? ._. got it? HELLO HELLO!?!?!?! -.-"

fake a smile, always.

2009-08-08T04:35:00.000-07:00

I didn't realise that tomorrow is the Nation Birthday. O.O
There's like no joy at all? Plus, there's no new song this year? Or maybe i didnt even touch the tv?? Damnnnnnnnnnn~

Anyway, with Abigail today. STUDY @ mac
She was suppose to teach me MATHS!
But, in the end, i teach her maths. I was like O-M-G-! She did nothing but laughs. hah? -.-"
Mr Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh was there too, just beside us. I wonder did he smile-d the whole day today. =D
P.S ; :/ hope he didn't tell daddy that i'm out. Cause, i didn't inform him.

After a few MINUTES of studying, the manager KINDLY asked us to leave.
Bloody hell.
So, when to Aby's house and study. Teach Teach Teach then PIANO!

4pm! homeeeeeee~
tired and still having migrane. I feel like ....... taking a gun and shot my head. D:
Panadol dosen't work at all, this few days.

*I'm dead @ 5pm. (: {fakeasmile-always}

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Renee ; I happy ? Nothing to post :/
Aby ; MY BLOG LA ! and , hellloooooooooooooo :D

LOL

2009-08-07T06:54:00.000-07:00

BUT READING ALL MY

" FLASHBACKS "

REALLY

LOL-ING MYSELF

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

new again -.-

2009-08-07T05:38:00.000-07:00

Migrane, has come back.
Omgggggggg.. Migraning since Monday. D:

Both of us, have the same feelings, same kind of family, almost everything same.
I can't stand it when she start her nonsence. No peace at all, 24/7. (except Hari Raya)
Shout shout shout, as if she's right..
Bloody hell.

And, someone had been taking my stuff without asking my permission.
OHYEAHHH BABYYY~ COOL ISN'T IT?!
My freaking cousin.
Bloody hell x2.

Oh, i did something wrong too. But to who or what is it??
To myself and i'll never tell YOU what is it.
Wait long long long long longggg~

I miss those time.

I miss them so much.

Closing down my blog soon, maybe.

Cause..

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Aby ; seriously, mad kid, ABIGAIL PHANG OPPS OPPS. (:

LLH ; o.o

Joyce ; hello hello :D

Tricia ; Go sleep laaa. Nothing better to do.

Renee ; *dots

voices?????

2009-07-31T05:03:00.000-07:00

8 of them?? o.o

Omg, bro sick? Damnnn ): Get well soon.
No mood to update bloggg ._.

Daddy,

Get well soooooooooooooooooon, please. ):

*i'm afraid.

luuvvvv.

2009-07-28T05:01:00.000-07:00

Solved (:

Luvzxc!

I want nobody, but you.

its not easy

2009-07-24T18:49:00.000-07:00

I feel weaker and weaker. I don't know why.
Why me? Going in and out of the "H/C" again and again.
I wanna be strong like those time.
But, it seems to be very hard now.
I know, whatever happens, happen for a reason.
But, what have i done? Just being hyper all the way right?~
I know, behind me, people are supporting me.
But, at certain time, i tend to get nervous?

ahh, the med really suck to the core. *very pain

promise(:

2009-07-23T17:55:00.001-07:00

Talking to you, will always makes me feel better.
Yesterday night, really mean everything to me.
I'm sorry that i teared.
But, yesterday, was everything.

You must be the lucky one because you know everything.

And, sorry for making your tears dropped.

he's the best of the best.

2009-07-23T05:49:00.000-07:00

I feel bad. I didn't tell you anyhing. I'm sorry.

I'm missing myself badly.

My post geting shorter and boring.

Really hope nothing.. ; negative

you said "teddy and me will always be there for you"

and, i beileve, its always true.

unpredictable.

2009-07-21T06:18:00.000-07:00

I swear i didnt mean it.

I can't tell all of you what's bothering right?

Sometime, i feel like letting it go. But..

I'm out of words

a short and fast one!

2009-07-19T03:32:00.000-07:00

Tricia says this picture dosen't look like me

but

its nice.

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

O.O My sexy cousin! Ineng!

LOLOLOLOL

Well, having fun yesterday. Why? Because just bored. Great, yesterday, i wasn't in pain so got a chance to crapp like hell? Lol.

Photos, Pictures.

My smiles are all fake. Very true. And i don't wish to post it.

But, look at my cousin & sis reaction/face?

~FUNNY~

My sis keep snatching the bear from me. Zzz.

Hello? Its mine ok! xD

Daddy says

" It reminds you to stay positive.

Don't think too much about the pain and you will feel better."

I'm glad that i can.

Even if i still feel the pain, its makes me feel better whenever i hug 'it'.

I'm enjoying my life even if i stil have to suffer.

===================================================================

A very very very very very very sorry to my

'Dear Junior/Pig',

Joyce Ong

for not calling/meeting you today.

Because,

1st, i forgot ._.
2nd, i didnt even realise that im meeting you

3rd, err, woke up late too??

Shall meet you next week!

SATURDAY SATURDAY! :D

How does it feel.

2009-07-17T09:11:00.000-07:00

Zzz, i feel like as if never met her for a very long time !

And she promise me that she'll meet me sooooon! :D

which i really don't know when ._.

But, comfirm sooon!

Remember?

She's my

dog

pig

tution teacher

(who's always giving the wrong info)

and

NEVER ONCE ; MY OWNER (:

Okay, i drank coke today and i admit it. So, i told Tricia which is very nice because i'm honest you see. But, damn ):
Well, get some sort of 'scolding' and new rule was given.

From 2 WEEKS once to ONCE a MONTH!

Zzz, now, i only can drink coke once a month. I think, i'm gonna be dead mann.

ohmannnnn~ i can feel it in my mouth now. C-O-K-E-!

Well, meet Mr Seah today.

Omg, he's wearing the rushmore teee! LOL

Okay, crap with him about 'ehem' xD

Glad that he's that 'kind'. xD yay! you&me have the same thoughts! wooohhooooo!~

Other then crapping, what i did was LAUGHING! Mr Seah's face reaction very very damn funny! LOL!

Then he got to go alrdy mannn ): He gave me 1chemistry & 1physics book to study. GREAT! and... a teddy bear :D which looks like him ^^

P.S//& MR SEAH AGREES THAT TRICIA IS A TRUE PIG! :D

well, i guess, tricia gonna kill me soon..

But, oh well, who cares cos i know she wont do it mann!

As, deep in her heart, she loves me alot.

ahhh, SHUT UP TRICIA, I KNOW YOU'RE NOT GONNA ADMIT HERE (:

getting worst

2009-07-16T08:09:00.000-07:00

A friend in need is a friend indeed.

On mc again for 2days which equals to 4 days.

(thurs,fri,sat,sun)

Zz, comfirm super bored. Just rot at home. I've nothing to post. Nothing to say.

*you don't care, so am i.

Mr Seah

Abigail

again?!

2009-07-13T08:19:00.000-07:00

On MC zzzzzzzzz~

Home, super damn sian. If only i've never moved to yishun, Tricia will then accompany me? ^^
Lol. When i'm back to school, i wanna

1. thank Tricia for taking pledge :D

2. See her brand neww IC xD

3. KILL HER. >:

4. Pass thumdrive.

5. Explore Abigail's new specs :D

Okay, anyway. With Joyce on Sunday.
She came Yishun, and accompanied me.
LOL
Just keep crapping and pictures taken.

No CCA this week again? O.O"
People outside there missing band, and i'm not?
Zzz.

Too bad. Hope next week there's CCA?
O.O

Lol, read this.

There was this guy at a bar, just looking at his drink. He stays like that for half of an hour. Then, this big trouble-making truck driver steps next to him, takes the drink from the guy, and just drinks it all down. The poor man starts crying. The truck driver says,

"Come on man, I was just joking. Here, I'll buy you another drink. I just can't stand to see a man cry."

"No, it's not that. This day is the worst of my life. First, I fall asleep, and I go late to my office. My boss, outrageous, fires me. When I leave the building, to my car, I found out it was stolen. The police said that they can do nothing. I get a cab to return home, and when I leave it, I remember I left my wallet and credit cards there. The cab driver just drives away."

"I go home, and when I get there, I find my wife in bed with the gardener. I leave home, and come to this bar. And just when I was thinking about putting an end to my life, you show up and drink my poison."

AND AND

Young Simon was walking around his local supermarket picking up a few items for his evening meal when he noticed an old lady was following him. He tried to ignore her but every direction he went she followed.

Eventually he went to the checkout, but the old lady managed to push in front of him and turned to speak to him.

“I beg your pardon,”

she said,

"I am very sorry if I have alarmed you by following you around, but you look just like my son who died recently.”

“I am very sorry to hear that,”

replied Simon,

“that must be very disconcerting for you. Is there anything I can do to help you?”

“Well there is one thing that would cheer me up a bit,” she said. “As I’m leaving, will you call out ‘Goodbye mother’ to me?”

“Of course,”

answered Simon and as the old woman was leaving, he called out,

"Goodbye mother!”

The girl on the till checked out his items and said

“That will be $135.”

Simon was shocked.

“How can my bill be £135?”

he asked,

“I’ve only bought a few things!”

The checkout girl replied,

“Your mother said that you would pay for her!”

OMGOMGOMGOMG LOLOLOLOLOL!
Very funny, i guess ._.
From some lame person.

and doc say

"no running, no sports, no gassy drinks. shitttt && NO FRIES"

last smile

2009-07-10T09:25:00.000-07:00

When home yesterday after recess ._.

I've nothing to blog about but i wanna say that i'm here, scared.
Always in pain.
Only god knows whats gonna happen to me for the next visit.

Zzz, my post is getting shorter and boring and .. o.o

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never think negative. always rmbring that.

everything has change.

2009-07-07T08:26:00.000-07:00

Listening to those words, omg. I swear i'm scared.

It rotates,
Everything can change within a minute.

but sometime, i'll get confuse.
because, our mood, can never be predicted.