what the hell

You know, i never felt so angry towards you before. This is the freaking first time. Its so awkward, i swear. I tried to control myself but its just too irritating. I'm seriously confused on you. I swear, i really don't know what are you up to. Showing attitude to me, may not be problem. I'm able to accept it. I've give the best to you and i know that. This isn't the first time i'm treated this way. Too bad, i can't take it anymore even if you say

"I'll always be there for you."

I don't know why am i so direct today. Maybe, i'm feeling so upset now. Be what you want to be. If you're hurt by my words, then i'm sorry. Maybe, you got should ask yourself why.

I don't know why am i saying this.

But, i gave all my love and the best to you. I've always put you first in the list. I've always tried to not hurt your feelings. But, i realise that i'm the first who got hurt. Am i just too nice to you?

Damn fucking hell. Everything seems to be my fault.